I was once lost

    How are you doing today? I hope everything in your life is going well for you.

    May I inquire as to whether you have ever felt lost in your life? even a single time? How did you handle it? And how would you behave if you were to encounter the same situation again in the future? Are you going to repeat your previous actions? Finally, if you're going to make any modifications, what will they be? What is the reason behind this?

    Yes, I've been in a position like that before in my life. I'm not sure why I'm still alive or why I'm doing these things at the present. I'll confess that this pandemic is difficult for all of us, and we have a tendency to overthink what's going on in our lives. I've even reached a stage in my life where I'm asking myself, "Why?" Why are you living in this manner? I'll admit that I'm not really happy; I may be laughing out loud, but I was dying on the inside.

    "I don't want to live like this anymore, I'm extremely weary of being like this," I told myself at the time.

    When the year began, I had no idea who I was or what I truly wanted to accomplish with my life, so I began to socialize. At first, everything went well, but as I progressed through the process of socializing, I still had no idea who I was or what I was doing with my life.

    Then, in April of this year, I met these people who are really nice, and you can tell by their voices that they have a good disposition. So, I just went with the flow with them, and listening to their kindness to everyone will actually melt your heart because you never thought you'd meet strangers that nice, especially online.

    So whenever I had spare time, I was looking for them, or someone like them, or someone with the same level of kindness as them, but then I discovered how difficult it is to find someone who is nice or who will treat you as a friend like them.

    After some time had passed and I was still lost, I heard a voice that sounded quite familiar to me, so I inquired whether it was the person I had assumed it was. And that individual denied it, then simply went, and I never heard from them again, to the point where I forgot about them.

    So after how many months, I heard the same voice again and even asked a second time with all of the information I had, but that person denied it again, so I simply forgot about it and stopped expecting anything.

    So the following time I went there, I didn't think to ask since I had already accepted the idea that I would never hear someone like that again, but then that person approached me and said that person was the one I was searching for.

    Starting a discussion with that individual was really helpful in reuniting me with my lost self; in fact, that person even questioned me, "Why are you, you?" which hit me like a ton of bricks. And this person even introduced me to a circle of friends where everyone will fit in; there's even a professional teacher who will talk to you like you're the same age and will truly light up and brighten your day after talking to him while still respecting your limitations; there's a psychologist "ate" who was so quiet at times but you can feel that she is silently supporting you in the back; and there's even a computer genius "kuya" who will bully you every time you talked but you can still feel to him the maturity of being a big brother.

    What I realized after meeting these wonderful souls is that everything happens for a reason, and in my case, losing myself and eventually finding my true self while surrounded by wonderful souls was one of the best things I'll always be blessed with.

    Knowing these kind of individuals in our life will assist us in learning to accept and enjoy the things in our lives, and problems are simply part of the learning process.

    I'll always be grateful to the person who turned me down twice, because if that person hadn't turned me down, I may never have met these beautiful individuals at this point in my life.

    This road is gonna be long, but life is so short, so seek out and visit those who will bring you peace, teach you to love and accept yourself, and help you grow as a person.

    Please don't lose hope if someone rejects you since there may be something beautiful waiting for you behind that rejection.

    And I hope that those rejections make a mark on your life so that you can discover your genuine self.