I sought the Lord, and He heard, and He answered.
I don’t really know how to write this properly because I feel like I’m still catching up to today. It’s graduation, but I don’t feel the way I thought I would. I thought there would be clarity, or maybe even relief in a way that makes everything feel settled. But instead, I just feel quiet. Not empty exactly—just quiet in a way that makes me aware of everything I went through to get here. Like my mind is still trying to sit with it all, even if my body is already here. Because I remember how this started. I remember not fully knowing if I would make it through college. I remember the uncertainty that didn’t always look like fear on the outside,but felt like it on the inside. I remember showing up to classes while carrying thoughts I didn’t know how to explain to anyone, while trying to convince myself that I was okay even when I wasn’t. Most days, I wasn’t really okay. I was just continuing. That was the only thing I knew how...
Life after ? Life after death? I'm not really a fan of this concept of heaven, hell, afterlife, etc. I feel like if we're gone or dead and thats it. No more pain no more happiness just ABSOLUTE VOID OF NOTHING HAHAH. But to be honest I'd prefer that one not because I'm not fit in "Heaven" but i think it's not fair for some reasons. Cuz if we're going to think about it CRITICALLY there's a lot of people who committed mistake not because they want to but they need to. Pretty much no choice at all. Besides SOME religious people gate keeping the GATE TO HEAVEN and at some point it's also the reason why some of em are toxic.
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I don't know if there's a life after death.
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